You are not a demographic
I’m often asked to identify the audience sector or (horror of horrors) the demographic that my work, creations and offerings are aimed at.
This makes me chuckle.
A few lifetimes ago, I worked in an environment that sought to strip the human soul of all her rich, wild depths and reduce her to her lowest (and most meaningless) common denominator: a demographic which needs to be force-fed a specific flavour of scarcity and not-good-enoughness in order to keep her in a trance of feeling perpetually lacking and incomplete.
I have no idea what that particular scene is like now but back then, it was proudly soulless.
On many occasions, the people I worked with asked me why on Earth I worked in that industry. Perhaps I’ll share the raw details of why another day. For now, suffice it to say that at the time, I was so alienated from my Self, and from the true nature and meaning of money, from the soul and spirit of money, and its desire to evolve as a force for thriving, equitable wholeness - free from the supremacy of the fiction of scarcity - that I decided to earn my livelihood working in an industry that deeply grossed me out and reinforced this sense of alienation. I would then spend all the money I earned from feeling gross on feeding the sad inner goblin of self-destruction, and on I went for a time in this cycle of confused, miserable nihilism.
Eventually, the Universe colluded to definitively pull back the proverbial curtains on the true grim nature of the systems and structures that I was giving my soul’s life force energy to. It was deeply traumatic. But the result was that if I tried to keep calm and carry on as normal, I literally felt like I was suffocating. My body and soul refused to comply anymore.
I had no choice but to leap out of that life. I crossed an ocean, moved to the rural wilds of the Mojave high desert, and spent my days in study and practice of the mysteries - both solitary and with teachers whose wise, renegade souls found mine right when I needed them. For a time, my livelihood became the 21st century equivalent of chop wood, carry water, each day filled with vulnerable gratitude for no longer living in the numbed despair of alienation.
So yes: all these years on, after having been in immersive - and occasionally uncomfortable - apprenticeship with my Self, with teachers and mystery traditions focused on the sacred alchemical marriage and the radical, liberating union of the Soul + Spirit, I chuckle when asked to identify what demographic my work is aimed at.
My work, creations and offerings are aimed at the cyclical unfurling of the deep mystery of the human soul in all her wholeness; towards her liberation from the prison of demeaning categories and demographics, from keeping her chained to hollow, reductive meanings that are way too narrow for her rich and subversive vastness.
The particular flavour of my medicine is not for those who want to “fix” themselves from feeling maladjusted to profoundly sick, bleak and broken systems and structures. It is not intended for “self improvement” in order to better function in, comply with and thereby feed the very paradigms of enslavement.
It is not for those who want to “cure” themselves by subduing, silencing and numbing out anxiety, depression, panic attacks and all the other myriad S.O.S signals the body and psyche send when lost in the labyrinth of disempowering untruths.
Instead, the value of what I offer is for you who are interested in following those SOS signals; for you who wants to learn the art of listening, feeling and re-membering them, of lovingly holding hands with them and going towards unearthing the treasure that they are guiding you to.
It is for you who is a loving and radical visionary, a future leader who recognizes that the embodied human is a living expression of the Divine, a renegade spirit who can feel in the very marrow of your Being that the insidious ways of imperialism are dying, and that you need all the messy, imperfect, glorious courage you can muster in order to midwife in something in beautiful resonance with the Anima Mundi the World Soul, the Earth’s wild and biodiverse quintessence.
It is for you who knows that in order to do this, you have to stay awake and alive to all the uncomfortable sensations of anxiety, panic, grief, rage and humbling joy, in order to create the resilience and space in your nervous system to feel and make space for the union of Love + Life.
It is for you who knows that there is way, way more to you than you have been led to believe, that your DNA is literally made of photons of light hidden in the numinous darkness of your beautiful, earthly body; you who are ready to embark on the mythic death-rebirth adventure of reclaiming your Self.
It is for you who knows that as soon as you make this commitment, the Universe reaches out to meet you, and that you are irrevocably protected by your loving ancestors and guides who have been waiting for you to take this potent step; you who knows that the power + wisdom to create safety from the inside out is your birthright as you embark on this journey.
This is the "demographic" that my work is in service to. A niche one perhaps, but a fearless one that is ready to root down + rise up.
But, I hear you ask: what if my life falls apart if I embark on this crazy adventure? Wouldn’t it just be simpler and safer to just shut up, comply and carry on as normal?
Well - that depends on whether or not you want your colonised definition and experience of safety to evolve. It depends on whether or not you can feel the infiltrations in your nervous system siphoning away your life force; whether you even want to lean into feeling that, or if you’re content giving away your energy to the faceless forces keeping you enslaved.
Because the fact is: without your energy, these authoritarian systems of oppression cannot survive. You don’t need them. They need you.
A simple question can help you to relate to your doubts, while regulating and creating capacity in your nervous system.
I’ll be sharing what that is, along with a guided meditation audio to work with it in my next transmission.